today has been awful and it's only 2:30pm. i booked a flight to new york yesterday from jan 12 to 16 because, STUPID ME, i thought school started on the 22nd. but no, it starts on the 15th. which doesn't make sense anyway b/c it's MLK day and we usually have off. anyway, so im an idiot and didn't check first and booked the flight because i just want to see beth so bad and i just wanted to get it done and now i had to cancel it and i have to book another flight and pay some fees. and i'm just really mad. i woke up today feeling mad and then i get a nasty text message from brian regarding my new york plans and i just want to call my mom. but she's asleep. this whole flight thing is going to get fixed, i'm going to new york one way or another, i just wish i wasn't so absent minded sometimes. oh and i have a midterm in a half hour. it's going to be rough. floating market tomorrow (hopefully). chiang mai this weekend.